A slight moan
The weekend was mellow and seems to have flown by.We did absolutely nothing but rented 3 DVD's on Saturday. Though we had planned to check out some balcony furniture at Gamma, the freezing weather was just a big turn-off for shopping outdoor furniture. My man and I have been saying that we gonna re-paint the balcony and finish the last coat of the kitchen's window frames. But again, blame the rainy/snowy/chilly weather!!
Sunday was a smiley day as we had to put on our smiley faces to visit my man's family. He was annoyed by his two siblings, while I was irritated by all the questions and suggestions about my job hunting progress. Four people in that house asked me if I got a job yet, so I had to admit defeat that I still don't have a job. I said that out loud four bloody times!! As I have been in denial lately, the admission of my jobless situation triggered off a wave of shame. I broke down once we got home, and allowed myself to cry my heart out for 10 minutes. I had a nightmare last night that even the dog asked me if I had any luck in job hunting, I kid you not.
But life has to go on anyway. There would be a big-ass family party in May as it is the 60th anniversary of my man's grandparents. All the close and distant relatives would be there. I had been feeling so paranoid and was convinced that those people would see me as a loser, who is jobless and speaks Dutch with a funny accent. But hell, I'm just going through a sticky patch and I shouldn't get myself down. My theory is: If I don't feel good, I have to look good!! So I have made a promise to myself - if I can nail down a full-time job or a 300 euro freelance project by the end of April, I would buy that 60 euro dress that I spotted at Zara.
By the way, my friend got me that bunch of flowers last Friday. Anyone knows the name(s)?? Though I don't know their names, but they look pretty cool and tough. One down side is - they keep losing some tiny pointed leaves.
posted by Miss Bad Penny at
09:56
2 comment(s):
You'll find a job, don't worry - you won't be unemployed forever :-)
And as for the family asking questions, why not come up with some whitty responce for when they ask you about your job search? Something sarcastic, just a thought - it may get them to stop asking...
By
Laura, at
2:14 PM, March 13, 2006
That's a great thought - sarcasm to cover the shame and to shush people away.
But I can't really turn sarcastic when I'm speaking Dutch. I bet I think for too long for the right Dutch words and word order most of the time, and so the moment of sarcasm is gone by then already.
Maybe I should write down some sarcastic answers in Dutch and keep practicing them these two months to prepare myself for that big-ass family gathering. I then would be the witty new family member who speaks good Dutch. What can I lose?? ;-)
By
Miss Bad Penny, at
8:35 AM, March 14, 2006
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